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busy

2006-01-07T23:47:00.000-08:00

I think abt a month I have not blog. I quite busy over this few month a lot of thing to do. Now I have two project java & managment principle. I feel some kind of piss off to do so much sch work. I doing the java programming now but it doesnt seen to be fine as I had a lot of problem doing the programming. I had create the interface but I have problem arranging them. My ite teacher told me to use gridlayout I manage to get the code in the example which given to my poly teacher. I try to edit the code but I still couldnt manage to get the arrangment tat I want. I had try my best to use many method to arrange the JComponent but no matter wat code I type it doesnt get the result tat I want. I had been struck of the arrangment code for 3 day le I still cant manage to get it.

I still have my tutorial to do it is so boring and piss off I want to get rid of it...argh....

getting back again

2005-12-06T05:58:00.000-08:00

Now is the week 5 of sch at the beginning my study is alright jus tat I dun like to attend principles of econ tutorial and data com lecture. Project are starting stress came by and getting more tired. Dunno is it tat when I getting stress my mood sway immediately I feel like having a sleep for 24 hr but I dun have a free hr to sleep for 24hr or at least have a 18hr of sleep will be enough for me to reduce my stress...I had a qurrel with my dad last wkend I go crazy because I had be tolerant it for abt 12yr he always say me stupid. I had enough of it and I gone crazy just because of a words. I never had lose the control I really wanna people to care about me whoever family or friends. Because I m tired of everything around me.

Please dont make me get to my past.

haix

2005-11-29T02:16:00.000-08:00

Nowaday a day alway overslept feel so tiring. Today during statistic lecture my stomach suddenly make stupid noise so embrasses but I doesn't feel hungry. Another thing which make me feel v uncomfortable that a classmate who now a day alway online and alway tok to me. Then tok to me about thing tat I find weird and make me feel tat v peiseh or feel like avoiding him. Suddenly ask me if he like me will I like him huh? den he told me tat he is just joking. I also hope tat he is jus joking. hm...today jus bought something for my friend for her as her bday is after 7day of mine. haha....Last year happen to celebrate my bday and her bday together but it is on my bday date.

Wondering does hazel will remember my bday, as my bday is the same day as her brother I think it impossible tat she will celebrate my bday secondly I know she wont remember it if she remember my bday and celebrate with me it will be my best bday gift via the year.

hm...now got to go off need to do my stuff liao BB......

zhong yue birthday

2005-11-25T08:25:00.000-08:00

Today gonna celebrate zy b'day but I was so late I wake up at 9.20am as I heard my hp vibration I was so shock at is 9.20am cos I meeting the rest of them at 9am in sch mac. I faster prepare myself and take the cake from the fridge and faster run down to look for cab. Ard 9.30 or 9.40am I take the cab to sch. I reach sch at 10am tat cab fare cos me about $5-6. I faster run to sch mac on the way I notice at got ppl looking at me you know Y? Becos I was taking a breadtalk plastic bag -_-"....

We faster settle everything ard 10.30am wait for zy at her void deck to give her a surprise but the mission was fail. Have a breakfast at the void deck then after that walk back to sch then walk to yck mrt to somerset. Walk to the heeren take neoprint at print club shop then walk again to cineleisure k box sing song >_<

Zy & Ct sing song so nice erm me better dun sing so lousy dun have the talent in it + I have soat throat. Getting more and more sick in the kbox feel a bit sleepy feel tat I having fever and now I having soat throat, fever and flu. sianx. If I feeling better I will go to for the CIP but now fever getting higer and higer. -_-"........

2005-11-18T16:34:00.000-08:00

Now thinking about the java project thinking wat to do abt it. Need to do the proposal and the presentation. Proposal know a bit on wat to do but for presentation dunno wat to do. haix
ZY b;day coming soon gonna celebrate for her. I think I have to press $ again for her b'day and after her b'day ended. 14 dec will me my b'day haha but turn to 19 soon. nxt yr will be 20 liao...Hope I can have a electronic piano for my b'day present last yr my b'day gift my sis n mum bought me is a baby-g watch. I think I want to get a piano for tis yr all the while I love piano so much seen I touch the sch piano in the sch hall. hehe... But I think I m dreaming ba cos a electronic piano cos so expensive even normal one will cos abt 100+...

fall sick

2005-11-15T20:37:00.000-08:00

Everyday as usual take bathing b4 going to sch feel quite cold but the weather is hot. Today early morning having gastic pain even tot I had taken my breakfast intend nt to attend the 1st lesson seen I m not feel well ended up I still attend the 1st lesson. Today was a bad day for me had a gastic pain for 8 times until now the pain had stop and having a slight fever but I dunno it is I jus feel hot or having fever until now den I knw I have fever. I guess today better slp early so tat tml i can still attend lesson.

2005-11-09T00:56:00.000-08:00

Today go to sch just to attend one lesson after tat can home. Have java lecture frm 10 - 11am after the lecture ended went out with wl to tp to sell hp for cash. Walk ard at the tp after sell off the hp went home. Feel quite tired but I still went online. Having some fren problem again dunno y I jus dun like she/he and feel a bit angry with her/him. Haix I think I shldnt care abt it so much bcos it hardly find true fren nowsday and I hardly believe in fren unless they are trustworthy.

I knw tat I myself wasnt a smart person I quite stupid in fact and I alway so blur in everything I know tat I such a lousy person. I admit it. Tat y I nv want to me alive.

2005-11-08T10:39:00.000-08:00

Today is the sec day of sch feel so boring like hell. Poly life are really bored I still have to bear with it for two and half yr to complete this courses. Now in the lab doing nothing today is such a boring day. Come in and log in the sch network using my account dunno y I cant login I try the password I alway but still cant get in. I think I m too forgetful yest I still able to login but today cant. Kinda of weird in fact now I doesnt have any mood. So went down to reset my password but now dunno how to change my password. sigh.....

today lesson until 4pm and fri I will not be having anymore lesson so I onli need to come to sch for 4 day. Aiyo I now v sian dunno wat to do got game to play but no mood to play. argh.......I wan to get out here......

2005-10-21T14:50:00.000-07:00

真命天女 lyric

JS - 我比想象中爱你

飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天跟海之间那条界线
慢慢的走远
你曾经是我的地平线

你有没有一点想念
我们一起去年的夏天
有种爱的感觉在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好象只是昨天

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

兰花掠过沙滩变静
我又看见我们的脚印
如果遇见幸福的机率
有千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你

我才发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

终于发现我比想象中爱你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地
我比想象中爱你

2005-10-21T12:49:00.000-07:00

When I saw you online or in person I alway dunno wat to tok to you. When I want to tok to you but I dunno wat to tok end up I remain slient. Wan to cheer u up I dunno wat to do to make u happy. I feel tat you getting far between the distance me and you. I try to tok to you so our distance will not get so far but I knw is useless. I hope time could stop when we have a fun time together. Cos I dun wan u to forget me one day.

2005-10-20T23:02:00.000-07:00

真命天女 lyric

Yi Shi Jia - Zai Yi Ci Yong You

我想念去年的冬天
下着雪的那一夜
你给的温柔
紧握的双手
温暖整个寒冬

失去了曾经的拥有
在你离开以后
带走了笑容
只留下寂寞
忘了幸福是什么

没有你的夜特别的漆黑
只能闭上双眼去感觉
没有我的夜谁在你身边
代替了那个从前

能不能再听一次你说爱我
回到还在你怀里的时候
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔
能不能让我再一次拥有
曾属于我的温柔

2005-10-20T22:49:00.001-07:00

真命天女 lyric

Hebe - 摩天轮

坐摩天轮送你一程
慢慢升高心慢慢冷
趁着机身划过云层
愿你收到我留的吻
离别气氛往往会拉长泪痕
怕我郁闷打起十二分精神
僵硬的唇是逞强的后遗症
不想谁看见你泪在翻滚
心真的疼目送着我爱的人
难舍难分却隔一道玻璃门
转身飞奔到常去的游乐城
在空中才道别能不能
坐摩天轮送你一程
慢慢升高心慢慢冷
从此每当我对你的想念太难忍
坐摩天轮心会平稳

看摩天轮像不像时间齿轮
转了一圈又到了什么月份
每张票根压在枕头下加温
霓虹灯温暖等待的人
满天星辰会陪我等

2005-10-20T22:49:00.000-07:00

真命天女 lyric

Ella - Zhi Shi Dang Zhi

太晚了才懂了
我们错过什么
只是当时太青涩
惘然懵懂
情绪波动太曲折把路都走远了
看过最美的日落
吹过最暖的寒风
oh~怎么记忆里所有深刻
你都在里头
忽然间心老了
连微笑也苦了
而你远得让我懂了天涯是什么
昨夜又下起大雨了
风把窗吹开了
oh~然后我梦见我醒了
你的背为我被雨淋透
热闹的宇宙中
人来人往是孤独的
心里的话身边有什么人可以说
拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉拉
听说失去会让我们变得成熟
你觉得呢

2005-10-20T22:20:00.000-07:00

Yest went to marina bay to eat steamboat with my fren. Meeting them at 5pm at the mrt ctrl station. I went to return vcd b4 taking mrt to marina bay. I was late in a few min time. They had reach peiseh to let them waiting. So we take a bus frm the mrt busstop to zen fa to eat steamboat. I first time went there normal but I think I gt go there b4 a bit familiar but I dun really remember it.

So we have our seat after tat make the payment den while later go take some food. Dunno wat happen I jus feel vvv dizzy dunno is it my blood pressure go v low again. haix...after finish eating for the first round I already full they decide to buy tiger and mix with sprits. We buy one can first time drink tiger the taste still ok. Sec time I onli wan to drink sprits dun wan drink beer liao if not later I drink le blur blur. B go n pour the tiger on my cup omg...end up I still gt to drink I drink half onli cos too full + I dun wan drink le.

Dun wan later take mrt with my red face. =_= so drink half onli if not v waste. Didnt knw I drink half I already getting a bit blur blur liao. So take mrt with them CL & WS alight at city hall den I alight at toa pahyo den take bus home cos I lazy to walk home. end of the day

2005-10-20T14:56:00.000-07:00

真命天女 lyric

Selina - Guan Bu Zhao

一个姓名遥远又熟悉
朋友偶尔提起居然还在意
也许只是天气让我有点忧郁
也许在我心底你从来不曾真的离去
只是你的一切我再也管不着
不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好
身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑
亲吻的味道也变了你已把我忘掉
是你的一切我再也管不着
你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好
不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门
如果说遗憾我承认但你已陌生

一段感情只剩下话题
不敢思索过去和你的甜蜜
那双天真眼睛有没有人会珍惜
最爱的小点心她会不会学着去料理
只是你的一切我再也管不着
不能管你喝了几杯心情好不好
身上穿的什么颜色也不是我来挑
亲吻的味道也变了你已把我忘掉
是你的一切我再也管不着
你不在我的怀抱不稀罕我的好
不能照顾你的人生不能敲你的门
如果说遗憾我承认但你已陌生
怎能把我忘掉

2005-10-17T08:11:00.000-07:00

Today wake up at 8am the most early morning of my holiday. Normal I wake up in the afternoon. Once wake brush teeth, take bath and went out. Take bus 13 to school reach school suddenly v headache due to yest set paper until 2.30am then sleep I think I do not have enough sleep ba or too hungry? haha...When she reach my headache gone liao cos I too hungry le.

So I stay in the school to try my best to help her hope tis time round she able to pass her paper. God bless to help her pass. WL i think he jealous nia he say I so good early morning go sch help her somemore yest set paper so late den slp. Nv c me treat him like tat...hahaha....Ard 1.30pm take the time go up the venus for her exam while later she go in den I leave was praying for her hope she will pass...

I know she can pass de...PASS pass PaSs pAsS!!!!!!

2005-10-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

hm...I feel that I so free and bored...On the 13 I went all the way to jurong east to pass WL the my exam note you see I treat him so good all the way go there jus to pass him paper. Than another fren also meet him at jurong east seen I m at jurong east. Seen I pass WL my note I also will be having lunch with him and my ex-colleage but WL give me to ask my another fren to join also. In fact I dont want my another fren to join I gt my own reason but end up my another also join.

My ex-colleage tot my another fren was my tat one. But he wasnt and I dun wan it also. With my ex-colleage, WL and another fren. I feel my another fren v irratiting ask me lot of stupid stuff. Cos of his joining make me feel frustrated everyone ask whether he is my bf huh.... I really hope tis can stop I feel like jus telling the truth tat is he my ex but WL tell me not to say better. So I didnt say. So I dun wan to mention it again and I hope I wont heard them mention abt him. Even I still treat him as fren.

On 14 is another boring day nthg to do feel like going out but nobody to go out with rot at home again. Only ard evening pass ZY my exam note seen I m too free. Intend to go jogging after 9pm but my place the floor was wet so end up didnt jog.

Suffer, Enjoy

2005-09-30T00:26:00.000-07:00

Yest nite suddenly I have a bad gastic pain. I take medicine to stop the pain but it didnt stop and it getting worst. No choice that my mum call my cousin to bring me to hospital. I reach Tan Lok Seng Hospital at 11pm+ waited quite long for my turn about 12am I had my first check up. After tat wait again for the sec check up at 12am+ the doctor give me medicine and give me an injection and went to observation room.

While I m in the observation room I wont sleep the bed v uncomfortable. So I was in the observation frm 1am+ - 3am+ I was discharge. Take cab with my mum and cousin reach my cousin place first then reach my place I reach home it was at 4am.After reach home I change my clothes and went to slp.

The next day I wake up going out to celebrate CT birthday. At first I couldn't go out as my mum ask me not to go out as I had a bad gastic pain yest and today still wan to go out. I tell my mum I m ok now so I able to go out to celebrate CT b'day. Meet them at 12pm den meet CT at 12.45pm I told them I was unable to eat KFC and drink cold drink and I told them what had happen to me last nite. ZY nag at me. omg >_<" so we gt the plan everything after tat I went to meet CT at city hall mrt ctrl station.

CT and I walk toward esplande when I tell her tat I got to blind fold her I think she shock. In fact I also dunno how to do I celebrate fren b'day the most is going out shopping. Even thought is not my b'day but I enjoy the celebration. Hope during my b'day I also able to have fun celebrate. =)